harrassing the interwebs

for the last three years, August has been the most challenging time of year to me. i wonder why? meh. August will be over in a week++.

cheers :)

i can be such a bitch at times. sigh~

another Sunday has come and a new week is about to begin. time is closing in on me, tick after tick after tick and finally a tock then i'll be on my own little way with my life.

studies. hah, studies. why am i having second thoughts about studying? i should know what i want by now. i don't want to be what i am today. but i also cannot say for sure what i wanted to be tomorrow if i keep up with this "second thoughts" i guess. am i through with the paper chase already?

"being nice to to the one you hate does not mean that you are a hypocrite but rather you are matured enough to tolerate" - anonimous. a quote i read a few monthsa go, still i keep it in my mind. i think this is so true, but not always true. i don't think i am matured enough to think like that. but i want to. at least. ahahas.

fffuuuu

there are two monkeys behind me right now so this will be the end for now.

cheers

deceitful mind

This Sunday morning was beautiful but now it has become so gloomy, a gloomy Sunday. The rain contributes much of this gloominess i am feeling now. "time flies when your're having fun", true, so true indeed that it breaks my heart to know the good times i am having will end soon, soon enough for me. my soul is now like the stormy sea, waves after waves rocking the biggest of vessels. i have kept all of this bottled up inside of me but like a bottle of champagne, the bottle will pop if it is shaken hard enough continuously. today my bottle will finally pop. but not with joy, only despair. i am a deceitful person, not only to others but me, the one who i call myself, the one i am closest with but also the one i hardly even know. the one thing that i know right from the start that is wrong, very wrong indeed is devouring me inside, deep inside my heart. i cannot even tell is it me or is it something else that is controlling my emotions. if passion, love, hate, happiness, gloominess are just chemicals reacting to each other inside of me, then those chemical glands inside of me are malfunctioning, it hurts, it hurts me so.

cheers of joy to you, cheers

"when life is toying with you, play along"

"when life is toying with you, play along"

my life for these past few weeks has been challenging. but i'm glad i got through it all. now that i can finally have a few hours for myself, i'm gonna blast my speakers with rock'n'roll music. (still listened to rock'n'roll but not as loud cuz unfortunately i was not home alone and i had to consider my family's feelings.) then played PES 10 after weeks of "absence" in the field. ahahas

cheers

nightmare is a great dream!

Fiction - Avenged Sevenfold

Now I think I understand, how this world can overcome a man

Like a friend we saw it through, in the end I gave my life for you

Gave you all I had to give, found a place for me to rest my head

While I may be hard to find, heard there's peace just on the other side

Not that I could, or that I would, let it burn, under my skin, let it burn

Left this life to set me free, took a piece of you inside of me

All this hurt can finally fade, promise me you'll never feel afraid

Not that I could, or that I would, let it burn, under my skin, let it burn

I hope its worth it, here on the highway, yeah

I know you'll find your own way when I'm not with you

So tell everybody, the ones who walk beside me, yeah

I hope you find your own way when I'm not with you tonight

I hope it's worth it, what's left behind me, yeah

I know you'll find your own way when I'm not with you

So tell everybody, the ones who walk beside me, yeah

I know you'll find your own way when I'm not with you tonight

retrieved from lyrics.wikia.com